Here’s the collage for yesterday’s foods. The overall feeling yesterday was OK. I didn’t feel sick after breakfast in the morning, and I brought my snacks with me before lunch. I had a great lunch — thanks to Hook, Line & Sinker on Preston for hosting our Dallas Moms Blog contributor meetup! Maybe that’s why I didn’t feel very sick until much later in the day, again in the early afternoon.
You’ll notice that I stopped eating after dinner. It was sort of intentional to test if it affected the way I feel the next morning, but it was also a side effect of being incredibly paranoid about what I was eating by the end of the day. I couldn’t think of anything I would “allow” myself to eat, so I didn’t eat, even though I was awake for 4 more hours after dinner. I was completely starving when I went to sleep and this morning I woke up at 5:45am so hungry that my stomach was growling and it felt like it was eating itself. However, once again I could not think of anything I would “allow” myself to eat until a little after 8am when I decided to make gluten-free pancakes with my kids.
The incidence of food guilt paralyzing me into starving myself is getting out of control, though. I am afraid of what people will say about what I am eating (too much gluten, too much dairy, not enough veggies, too many nuts, not enough nuts, are those organic? why did you eat so often? you should eat more often, etc.), so I just don’t eat. I am not going to do a Day 3 because I got so hungry today that I got shaky when I talked myself out of eating all morning.
Reminder: I WORK OUT. A LOT. It is not good for me to go long without food, regardless of whether it is good for someone else. In fact, tomorrow (or Friday’s) post is going to be about orthorexia. Go ahead and Google it and I’ll see you tomorrow!