A question of yoga: to Bikram or not to Bikram?

As much yoga as I’ve taken randomly over the years, I really never knew much about it. It was only until recently that I realized the kind of yoga I’ve been doing for so long is called vinyasa, or “flow”, yoga. I have also done a variation of slightly heated power yoga, but it was also based on vinyasa.

What has drawn me to yoga, and kept me coming back, is the way the flow of the breath helps create a sense of peace and calm even while the body is actually participating in relatively strenuous exercise. I think it distracts me from the fact that I’m working out but it also really calms my mind.

Bikram yoga is a whole different thing.

Due to my obsession with Groupon, I purchased 1 month of unlimited Bikram yoga at a studio down the road from our (current) house. A friend of mine really loves this form of yoga. I was aware that this yoga was practiced in a 105-degree heated room, which was very intimidating. I seriously hate being hot and I am not super fond of sweating. However, the power yoga I did before was in 85 degrees and it wasn’t so bad. So, I thought…worth a try.

They are 90-minute classes, did I mention that? 90 minutes in 105-degree heat.

Also I had to take the 5:30 AM class because that is the only time I had childcare available.

What was I thinking?!!

I really hate to sound like a wuss. I know I haven’t practiced since I was pregnant. The instructors at the Bikram studio told me that I should take two classes within 24 hours, and so I did.

The instructor today was explaining that Bikram is about “being willing to experience discomfort” for the greater goal, for a better life. I agree with that theory about many things in life but maybe not exercise. The thing is, if I don’t enjoy the exercise I am doing, I won’t do it. I like vinyasa yoga because it is enjoyable to me. And I like getting on an elliptical machine and lifting weights as well. But I don’t think I like this kind of workout.

Would it be wrong of me to not do any more Bikram because it kind of sucks the fun out of yoga for me?

I only paid $20 so I don’t feel bad about it from a monetary standpoint. It’s more that I don’t want to be someone who “gives up”. And I hate to admit to not loving a form of yoga, but…I think I really don’t love it. What do you think? Am I just being a whiner?

Five Things I Meant To Do In 2009

It wasn’t originally a meme, but more of a question on BlogHer post by Maria Niles of PopConsumer, but I love it. I severely dislike those New Year’s resolution posts – I never make New Year’s resolutions anymore. Mostly because I have a terrible memory and less than halfway through the year I have forgotten what they were. But there are always things I “meant” to do!

  1. Start working out again. I have gone to Mome Yoga twice, but that is about it. I actually miss yoga a lot but have not figured out what to do with Little Sir in order to attend classes again. I also intended to walk around the block or down to the lake with Little Sir when it is still warm more often, but no. Have not done it. Have been washing and folding diapers and cloth wipes, cleaning the house, sleeping, sitting on the couch staring at him. I still have at least 11 lbs. to lose. I cannot stand the thought that I have 3 pairs of designer jeans that are rotting in my closet. I refuse to admit that I spent all that money on jeans I can no longer wear!!
  2. Write profound stuff on this blog. I admire the depth of posts that bloggers like Crunchy Domestic Goddess and SassyMonkey write. I admire the honesty of Bobbi Janay and Mommy Is Rock n Roll. Marjorie of My Inner French Girl and Chirky write so skillfully that it reads like art. But me? I slap a few pictures on the family blog and I just don’t really post much on this blog at all. I write beautiful blog posts in my head. They just never get to the internets. I have to admit that some of it is fear of what people will think. I know who reads this blog and I don’t want to offend anyone I know IRL (in real life). Shame on me.
  3. Go back to the orthodontist. When I was 25-27 years old, I dropped around $6K on braces primarily because I got tired of photoshopping my teeth in all pictures of myself. When Christian and I were married, my teeth were amazing. I have a retainer I was supposed to wear to keep them like that but, uh, lets just say I slacked off on that over the last 4 years. Finally this year I realized that I am back to photoshopping my teeth. There is one tooth that is crooked that has moved back. And this year I meant to call the orthodontist and set up an appointment to get that fixed. Have not done it.
  4. Get a new iPhone. I have the very first old skool iPhone. You know, back when they were obscenely expensive. I am still a little bitter about how much we paid for mine and now they are so comparatively cheap. I don’t have enough room for all my music in the 8MB it has, and it has the old-style input plug at the top that doesn’t work for the audio jack of our new Honda Fit. But I am cheap and I keep thinking we just shouldn’t spend the money. Also, I hear that GPS really drains the battery. I don’t have that problem with my current phone!
  5. Blog more often. This sounds a lot like #2 but there’s a difference. Sometimes I feel like these 2 things are in conflict – quantity vs. quality. I’ve considered doing NaBloPoMo, but I’ve also noticed that some bloggers who participate in this challenge to blog every single day for a month suffer from a noticeable decrease in the quality of their posts. I really don’t want to do that to ya’ll. If I’m going to blog, I feel like I should have something to say, and say it well. Not just resort to talking about what I had for breakfast just because I ran out of things to say (although I did do a post about Malt-O-Meal once, that was for a good reason!). So I haven’t committed to NaBloPoMo or posted as frequently as I probably should.

So, there you go. Things I meant to do. Just to be clear, this doesn’t mean I’m necessarily going to do these things in 2010, just that I will probably continue to intend to do them…someday…

Happy New Year!

    Mommy blogging

    When I first found out I was pregnant, I told my (15) loyal Conscientious Confusion readers that I would not be turning this into a mommy blog. I know you didn’t sign up for that, and besides, I would like to have something that would require me to think outside the context of being a new mom.

    I have a strong desire to avoid being one of those women who can’t talk about anything but their kids. I have always been interested in reading, yoga, living healthfully, getting out socially, finding ways to be more “green”, Christian and I enjoy going out to new places and traveling, and talking amongst ourselves about politics and world events…ya’ll know this if you know me or you’ve read the blog long.


    I’ve been at home all day long, every day, with a newborn for the last 3+ weeks. Yes, I am still keeping up with world events and politics from TV and my iPhone, and we have started going out to new restaurants again together (with Little Sir). We even went to White Rock Local Market this weekend – I wore Little Sir in my Maya sling.

    But none of this is great non-mommy-blog fodder. The traffic for our family blog is waaaaay up and this blog is down, down, down. I know I haven’t done a great job of updating. The fact that I get only 1-3 hours of sleep at a time, ever, has a great deal to do with my writing incompetence. It takes me days to answer simple emails, my brain pretty much falters and stops at the thought of typing anything longer. And even if I could handle it mentally, I can rarely leave my newborn long enough to type anything substantially long. It took me 7 hours to right this post.

    Due to the aforementioned lack of sleep, when he sleeps I do try to sleep as well. Or clean the house or do laundry. We are cloth diapering already, by the way – it’s going great. I really want to do a post on that, but, well….IT TOOK ME 7 HOURS TO WRITE THIS POST.
    And it isn’t even as well organized as a post about cloth diapering would/should be.

    So what am I trying to say?
    I ask myself that a lot right in the middle of sentences these days.

    I guess what I am trying to say is, I am sorry for not posting more.
    But I do plan to keep trying the best I can.
    The compromise might be that I might need to write about things related to being a new mom. I promise it won’t be all about Little Sir (that is what the family blog is for, I promise).
    But maybe just some stuff about myself?

    What would you think of that, readers?
    Would you stop reading?
    Or are you even still there??

    * crickets chirping *