SAHM malaise: I do not haz it

When we made the decision for me to “stay home” with the kids after having Little Lady, I read some books about being a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom). I’m actually reading another really amazing book right now called The Myth of the Perfect Mother by Carla Barnhill. Definitely recommend it, and will do a review soon.

In every single book about staying home, there are chapters and chapters about what to do about boredom, what to do about loneliness, how you are going to miss your coworkers, and how you can get depressed from the lack of schedule and lack of interaction… I was fully expecting this to happen when I went into this thing.

But so far, nothing like that.

What I do experience is over-commitment, having to decide how many activities we can realistically fit into one day, lack of sleep trying to get everything done, and guilt about not spending enough time with all my various mommy friends and our out-of-town families.

Admittedly, what I am is actually a WAHM (Work At Home Mom), not a SAHM. I work up to 8 hours a week at nights, during naps, and whenever I can get the kids to play quietly on their own. Danielle wrote a really good description of what a typical day for a WAHM looks like. Go ahead and go there, just come right back here… I’ll wait for you! Another great post was written by Jill at BabyRabies about when she realized she is a WAHM, not a SAHM. These ladies have so effectively written for me what I am often too overwhelmed to write.

For me, so far in my journey I have found that it is not boredom or loneliness that I encounter, but instead something that is more like jealousy of the boredom and loneliness that I thought I would have. I have a wonderful but neglected Kindle that I would desperately love to spend some time with. Oh right, and a husband too…But instead I find that most of my spare time is spent frantically trying to pack in more of my social media work, just enough blogging to get by, and a constant concern about that stupid Klout score so that one day I might make some money off this blog.

I am definitely not complaining, I am still enjoying this current phase of my life. It’s just not quite what I was lead to expect it might be! What have been your biggest surprises?

Do you prefer to use a pen or a computer?

Yet another NaBloPoMo writing prompt.

Answer: computer

A long time ago, my typing speed surpassed the speed at which I am able to write with a pen or pencil. If you know me in real life, you know that I talk fast. I think fast, too. So if I want to get something written down quickly before I forget it or get distracted, the fastest way for me to do it is to type.

Another fun fact about me: I hold my pen or pencil weird. I hold it completely vertically.

I hold my pen weird when I write

 It looks really weird and it hurts to write that way for a long period of time. I have tried and tried to change it but I can’t write the “correct” way. And why should I? That’s what the laptop is for!

What is your favourite part about writing?

My favorite part about writing is that when I put what’s inside my head onto the screen, it makes the running commentary in my head stop for a while. Or, it makes the commentary go off in another direction and stop hashing over that same stuff, around and around. Put it out in the universe and make other people think about it for a while!

Just because I write about my own adventures inside my head 24/7 does not make me crazy. Does it?

writing stops the voices in my head

* This post is from a writing prompt as part of NaBloPoMo *

NaBloPoMo November 2011

All the cool kids on Twitter and the bloggers I follow seem to be doing NaBloPoMo this month, and since I had somehow already scheduled posts for November 1 and 3 (what? I know, right?!), I am thinking I might just take the plunge and do this too!

NaBloPoMo 2011

What the heck is NaBloPoMo?
An abbreviation for National Blog Posting Month. It’s a challenge where you agree to do a blog post every single day for the entire month of November. BlogHer hosts a page with writing prompts to get you started.

How is this different from NaNoWriMo?
NaNoWriMo is National Novel Writing Month. Let me take this opportunity to tell you that I am not now, nor have I ever, entertained the idea of writing a novel. I can tell you with 100% certainty that there is no story inside my brain yearning to get out. The running commentary inside my head is definitely satirical nonfiction memoir which disappears as soon as it drifts across my cerebral cortex.

You’re going to write a long essay on every single writing prompt?
Here’s the deal. You guys know what my life is like with the 2 kids, no sleep, and now we are buying a house so as soon as we close on the house, I’ll be packing to move right around Thanksgiving.

Let me tell you what I am planning on doing: 
Yes, I will post every day.
I might end up writing only a paragraph some days.
It might not be that interesting.
I will probably read the writing prompts. Sometimes.
What I post might not have anything to do with the writing prompts.
I might answer a writing prompt from some other day entirely.

So, if we are all clear on what is going to happen, consider yourself warned!
I’m starting out with 108 RSS subscribers. Let’s see how many of you can hang in there!!